For most of this week I’ve been in a mood that can only be described as filthy. Absolute tantrum-throwing hissy fit stomping around the house kind of filthy mood. It’s not that the week was bad, or anything bad happened, but you know when you’re just in a MOOD?
And there were things that I had on my list of “things to do” which included writing a great informative article for my web page, doing my marketing, catching up on admin work and writing up my monthly newsletter. But every time I sat down in front of my computer to work, I just couldn’t do it. And because I was already in a bad mood, the fact that I couldn’t make myself do the work I thought I had to do put me in an even WORSE mood.
Nobody is telling me to do these things so I’m basically having a tantrum at myself.
As many of you are aware, I work a lot with Access Consciousness tools and processes both for myself and with my clients. One of the first tools we learn is the concept of “light vs heavy”. I won’t go into it too much here, if you’ve not heard of this before then check out this YouTube video that explains it:
I use this a lot, and I also realized that I have used this tool all my life without even realizing it – it is a tool that has helped me be ok with who I be, and how I am in the world.
Now, every time I went to sit down at my desk to do my work, everything about just being there felt SUPER HEAVY and bleagh. Sometimes I slip back into the habit of trying to make myself do something I know isn’t the right thing for me at that moment in time. I think this stems from those messages we hear about “NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU DON’T WANT TO DO SOMETHING, DO IT ANYWAY’. As if it's the only "right" way to get things done. Yeah well it may work great for many people but it rarely works for me (unless I’m some kind of competition – hellooooo Crossfit Open!). It's not the only way to do things.
So I’m sitting there thinking “this sucks, I do not want to be doing this right now” but at the same time “but I have to get this newsletter out, I have to write an article, I HAVE TO DO THESE THINGS”. Then I reluctantly (because sometimes I get stuck back in how I should do things rather than how *I* do things) decided to pay attention to what works for me. So I thought ‘well ok, this isn’t working for me right now so what feels light?’ And what felt light was to go and watch an Anatomy Trains DVD (which is part of some further education I’m doing). So I did, after another little internal battle about what I *should* be doing - and who's thought was that anyway??
And guess what? I felt lighter. My mood actually lifted a bit. And thankfully, because of these Access Consciousness tools, I ALLOWED myself to just do the thing that feels light and leave the thing that feels heavy for now. In that 10 second moment of time, watching my educational DVD felt light and easy to me. And the thing is, it was still a helpful thing for me to be doing, as I was revising some information that I had recently been studying.
So what else did I do? At a friend’s suggestion, I went and did an evening exercise session. In that session I got to let out my foul mood through exercise, throwing things, pushing myself, and lifting things, and it felt good. I also had a coaching session this week (yes, I see a coach, because I want to be a better me to be a better support person for you!), and before going in I was thinking to myself “what’s the point of going today, I have nothing to say, nothing is going to be helpful, blah blah blah” mentally kicking the dirt and stomping my feet, and it showed on my face I'm sure - but within the first 5 minutes of that session everything had flipped and I suddenly had something tangible to do to turn my mood around.
I also asked my husband to run an Access Bars session for me, because I know that this really helps when I’m feeling on the fritz. And it also helped create more ease for me.
What is the point of me telling you all of this? Firstly, that all of us, ALL OF US, have bad days/weeks. That is normal and that is fine. I still haven’t done my monthly newsletter, and I’m not going to. In place of an informative article on my website, you’re getting this opinion piece. Sorry / not sorry. But what I did, when I didn’t want to do anything – was to do something else. And I had to remember to be OK with that. I spoke to people and vented about how I felt. I asked for help. I did some exercise. I did things that felt light and easy. What if you could allow yourself to do the same? Where have you been trying to force things that do not fit? What if you could have more ease in your life?
Usually what I find is that eventually I’ll find my way back around to doing the thing I didn’t want to do, at a different time, when it feels easy. Like right now, at the end of the week, writing this blog article. It all comes together in the end, even if it’s not in the linear fashion you might expect it to be.
As your Naturopath / RMT / Energetic Therapy practitioner my role is not just about telling you what to eat, what supplements to take, what stretches to do or what foods to cut out of your diet and see ya later.
My role is to be your support person. When you are having a rough day/week/month/year and you need some guidance or help, I am here for you. I am one of the tools in your belt that you can use to help you start feeling balanced and grounded again, just like I used a variety of tools and support people to help get me back to feeling myself. If you feel like you could use some support right now, please do contact me – 0410 259 273 or firstname.lastname@example.org.
And just remember – you are amazing!